the worst mistake of my life.
maybe i shouldhaveseen that therapist.......,myabe i relaly really really should.....oh i made a terrible mistake, terrible, horrible, i don't know if i'll ever be able to forgive myself............i.........i'm going crazy, i'm dangerous............i really hurt elize.....i badly hurt her eye........i think i blinded her.......with a kitchenknife last night........ i was seeing cats, i was hearing it so loud.........the visions are getting scarier, so much red, eyes, i hear screams and car sounds and yyowls................and i saw a monster.......in place of elize.......and my mind went blank for a second and and then.................she had blood coming out of her eye, and the knife was in my hand, and the blood...................on the tip...........dripping down.......... i called for the ambulance............we rushed to the hospital...........it was late at night...........elize.....lied to the doctors about me hurting her.............i shouldve siad it....admit