updates......

 my band with elize is getting bigger......people have begun to know us around the scene, and say hello.....i'm feeling like i've finally found my place in this world, amongst my lover and these other punks, goths......emos....all in between..........
at work, i have now officially a friend group.....kamila and now socorro, who started working in the booths just a bit ago, but we hit it off....they are very smart....we all exchanged numbers and even though they're not exactly into music they still show up in our shows just so we can all drink together, me, elize, kamila and them....we have deep talks about the universe.......and then we also laugh together at the most stupid things.....

i fell loved....love is too good, romantic, platonic love, all kinds of love......when the world is so bleak, and cruel, so filled with pain, so gray, so violent, so bloody, so hopeless......love stands all.......

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 it seems i went nuts on the blog last night......as usually, i barely remember anything. i blanked.....woke up and had scribbled on pages upon pages.....words i can't decipher.....typed so much, wrote so much my hands are sore.....i really wasn't myself.....more and more i believe on elize's spirit theory........i'm keeping the posts up so i can show them to her.....oh god......i'm terrified......one second i feel okay, and my senses are here with me.......and....and then in others i'm screaming at elize's door......i'm writing on the walls, i'm.........hearing, seeing all of that......i'm missing work days, i'm sleeping poorly. elize is trying all she can, spiritual passes..........reading so much.........she's trying to fix me but...................what if i can't be fixed.......the thing i'm most terrified about is..... .......what if i hurt her again...?
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